a few lyrics that been put together

I feel like I wanna smack somebody
Turn around and bitch slap somebody
But I ain't goin' out bro
I ain't givin' into it
Anxieties bash my mind in
Terrorizing my soul
Shackle and chained
My soul feels stained
I can't explain got an itch on my brain
Lately my whole aim is to maintain
And regain control of my mainframe

Got nothin' to say anymore
There's nothin' new, it's all been done before
Not looking to settle the scores.
So please let me be

Thought I'd be the one you'd adore
I always thought I would be so much more
not something that I can afford

This is the end of a really sad story
but don't feel bad for me
I started out alone and in the end that's where I'll be
back to start of a really sad story

Got nothin' to say anymore
Originality went out that door
Now fallin' from what I'm lookin' for

So please let me be
Please let me be

I'll walk alone

That's where I'll be

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid
Always afraid
Of the things he's feeling
He could just be gone

He would just sail on
He'll just sail on

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched the seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost
In remembrance I relive
How can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground
Like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast
Down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now
A castaway

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealin'
Tired of livin' like a blind man
I'm sick inside without a sense of feelin
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
I've been wrong, I've been down
To the bottom of every bottle

It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
It must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

I walk alone
Think of home
Memories of long ago
No one knows I lost my soul long ago

Lied too much
She said that she's had enough
Am I too much
She said that she's had enough

I need to run far away
Can't go back to that place
Like she told me
I'm just a big disgrace

So now I'm standing here alone
I'm learning how to live life on my own

lyrics been taken from- Anxiety, Sad Story, The Unforgiven III, Scars, How You Remind Me, Cold, On My Own

*ps-i am what i am