Thursday, September 11, 2014

how does it feel?



How did it feel to fail? How did it feel to feel? All of those times,
we tried our very hardest, and our best was never good enough for
them. Well, those days have come to and end, my friends. We no longer
answer to anyone and this new life is ours to live. The end. This is
the end of the way we used to live. The end. The end. This is the
death of the days that we were better off dead. No more second
guessing. No more fucking patience. No more self-doubt. No more
inhibitions. Adapt. Outlast. Adapt. Outlast. At Last. The end.

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

tahniah

tahniah ed. kau kini byk penyakit. jangkitan paru paru, tb. doktor sekarang sungguh bijak suspek ikut suka bapak deme je. blom waktunye utk aku mati. aku masih belum selesai di dunia ni. jadi ini hanya permainan doktor2 yang kurang bijak. selagi belum sampai waktu aku. selagi itu aku takkan rebah ke tanah

Monday, August 18, 2014

fear is your god now

i will bow to no one
no gods, no masters to show us mercy in the face of defeat
this endless suffering in the kingdom we've created
at the cost of the weak
and i know that there is no other way
but i can never be your savior, your one to blame
fear is your god now
and i know if can fight this
i'll have learned from my mistakes
i've lived so blind and careless
but now i know the path it takes
condemned to hang your head
we bleed the same blood, red, red
i'm hopeless
i will bow to no one
fear is your god now
goddamn the consequences
the empty beds and restless heads
reject their great american myth
of persevere and overcome
i will bow to no one

Thursday, August 14, 2014

outcast

Sick and tired, I'm at the end of my rope. Every word we say is held under a microscope.
If freedom and equality is what you believe, practice what you preach.

Why are we the outcast?

Pick apart our lives and what we believe, I guess I'm just "bigot" with my heart on my sleeve.
I’m expected to accept your american dream.

Perpetuate all this hate, you say that I'm wrong and I don't belong, made an outcast because of my faith.
You expect respect with your hands around my neck. Everyday this noose gets tighter and tighter.

Dragging these chains until they break, no one's free unless we change.
We drag the same chains we feel the same pain.
Made an outcast because of my faith, I'm sick of living in a world of hate.
We drag the same chains we feel the same pain.

If were all equal why is God the problem, not the people?
Maybe we’re both to blame, we all suffer the same.

And we're sinking deeper and deeper.

Dragging these chains until they break, no one's free unless we change.
We drag the same chains we feel the same pain.
Made an outcast because of my faith, I'm sick of living in a world of hate.
We drag the same chains we feel the same pain.

Just grow up, we don't share the same beliefs but we deserve the same love.
I'm sick and tired of all this pain we drag these chains until they break.
So let's dig a grave and put hate back into its place.
Dragging these chains until they break, I'm sick and tired of all this hate.

If freedom and equality is what you believe practice what you preach.

Why are we the outcast?

I won't be an outcast.

Saturday, August 09, 2014

Friday, August 08, 2014

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Z.F.A

Ya. Ini semua nama org. Mereka mungkin tahu sapa mereka. A. I xde perasaan marah kat u. Just i mmg btol2 lepaskan u. I xleh dah terima u sbb ur family has spoken kan. So make them happy. I ta rasa rugi 4 tahun bersama. Tp tiada jodoh disitu kan. Ape boleh buat. Hanya boleh minta maaf segala dosa n salah i kat u. Kepada F pula. Minta maaf sgt2 pe salah i kat u okay. I baca balik kat blog n ms. Mmg i terasa kejam gila dgn u. Sbb buat u camtu sampai u fucked up dgn i. Sorry ye. Buat u tunggu nak jumpa i dulu tp i tanak dtg. I was angry and young. Maaf la kalau i ta tegur u. To Z pula. U adalah seseorang yg tinggi. Hahaha. Sorry buat salah dgn u and dated F while i was still with u. Haha another mistake is when i was young and angry. Tp tahla.  Menyesal ape pon xdpt. Hahaha sini i akan ceritakan diri i pada korang. Hidup i. U all kenal i. When was it never sux kan. Kawan2 yg stay true dgn scene n diri i. Ada la sikit. Some u all kenal. Some new also. Owh. I ade adik kecik umur die skarang 2 tahun. Ayah i kawin lagi. Hahaha hebat die walaupon bini pertama cerai. Mak i meninggal. Ni dah kire 3 kali die kawin. I blom lg. Hahaha. Owh merokok. Mcm biasa la. Xde teruk pon. But skarang i kerja jd buruh kasar je. Hahaha. Hidup i dah wasted dari kecik. I kan suka hidup camni. Struggle everyday just to survive. I dah xpakai satria. Kereta tuh semua ade kenangan bwk u all jalan2. Hahaha. Ok. I rasa itu je nak cite kot. Tade benda ape dah pon u org nak amik tau pon. Hahaha sometimes i ade rasa syg. Tp i dah buat salah. So let's move on. And go on with our live. Owh b4 i go i just want to tell you the best moment with every one of you. Z. Bile abg u kenakan i suh jd mcm kucing. Hahahaa. For F. U told me u would try and loved and take care of me more then my late mother. A thx for making me try harder to survive. At least u make me get a new car.

You opened my eyes, opened my mind, you changed the world for me.




Long since the day I last saw your face,
the distance between gets a little hard to bare sometimes.
Can’t seem to keep my two feet on the ground, constantly wondering.
These are the ties that bind. Ink in the skin to remind, so defined.
Never healed, and never out of mind. You are always by my side.
Maps drawn by hand to direct, so complex, lead the way when we’re far apart.
Seas may divide, mountains block our view.
So far out of sight, you are always in my thoughts.
Seas may divide, mountains block our view.
You are always in my thoughts.

And though we are so far apart,
you are always here in my heart.

I’m singing this song for you, you mean so much.
You opened my eyes, opened my mind, you changed the world for me.

Singing this song, writing these words for you.
I hope you’ll hear, I hope you’ll know.

And as the sun it sets today,
your star will always lead the way, anywhere.
And though we’re always far apart,
you’re present here in my heart, everywhere.

Tuesday, May 06, 2014

ah shitttttttt


ni semua wan dan farouk nye pasal. abis melekat aku dgn lagu ni. hahaha hampes. lirik die la.. adoi.. membuatkan aku teringat kesalahan aku yang dulu. hahaha

Have you got colour in your cheeks?
Do you ever get that fear that you can't shift
The type that sticks around like summat in your teeth?
Are there some aces up your sleeve?
Have you no idea that you're in deep?
I dreamt about you nearly every night this week
How many secrets can you keep?
'Cause there's this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat
Until I fall asleep
Spilling drinks on my settee

(Do I wanna know)
If this feeling flows both ways?
(Sad to see you go)
Was sort of hoping that you'd stay
(Baby we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day

Crawling back to you

Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?
'Cause I always do
Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new
Now I've thought it through

Crawling back to you

So have you got the guts?
Been wondering if your heart's still open and if so I wanna know what time it shuts
Simmer down and pucker up
I'm sorry to interrupt. It's just I'm constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you
I don't know if you feel the same as I do
But we could be together if you wanted to

(Do I wanna know?)
If this feeling flows both ways?
(Sad to see you go)
Was sort of hoping that you'd stay
(Baby we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day

Crawling back to you (crawling back to you)

Ever thought of calling when you've had a few? (you've had a few)
'Cause I always do ('cause I always do)
Maybe I'm too (maybe I'm too busy) busy being yours to fall for somebody new
Now I've thought it through

Crawling back to you

(Do I wanna know?)
If this feeling flows both ways?
(Sad to see you go)
Was sort of hoping that you'd stay
(Baby we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day

(Do I wanna know?)
Too busy being yours to fall
(Sad to see you go)
Ever thought of calling darling?
(Do I wanna know?)
Do you want me crawling back to you?